A Crazy Evaluation
June 6, 2008, 8:50 am
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Today’s blog is going to be one of those blogs where it’s just sharing what’s up with me and on a more personal level then most. Sometimes you get in those moods where you just think about your life and contemplate where you have been and where you are going. It’s in those times you look back and you ask God, “how in the heck did I wind up here?”. If you would have asked me 3 years ago what my life would be like today I probably would not have given a description of what I am living today. The farther you go back the more the expectation would not match the reality.

I can put together the circumstances surrounding how I have arrived here easily enough just like anyone can looking back. Some of the circumstances I was in control of and others I was not but both have worked to place me on the path that I am on right now. Would I have chosen this path I am on right now? Probably not, but is it the right one for me to be on? Yes it is, because of some pertinent info I have to this point not listed in this crazy evaluation.

God knows what is best for me better than I know what is best for me. I have yielded control of my life to Him and I trust Him more than I trust myself. So the biggest factor in this evaluation of the “life of Darrell” is the God factor. Even when the path that I am on seems out of sync with my dreams or wants I trust God. Because ultimately God knows those dreams and He know those desires and He knows when it’s best for me to achieve and acquire or not. God knows what I yearn for and balances that with what is best for me.

So you might be thinking that I am not loving my life right now or that I am going through some major crises. You would be totally off base with that assumption. I love my life and the path that I am on but I am just looking back a little and I am amazed at where I am at and at the same time learning contentment in the process. There will always be challenges along the way and lessons to be learned, that’s just the way it is no matter where you find yourself in life. It all comes down to trusting God and leaning on His wisdom instead of your own. It leads me to one of my favorite scriptures in the Bible.

“Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.”

Lord give me the strength to give control up, give me the will to learn the hard lessons, give me the hope to know it’s ok and give me the peace for the path unknown. This is my pray for today.


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I’m glad that we don’t end up where we want to all the time. In retrospect, I think I am happier than I would be had I done what I wanted to (this has happened several times).

Things don’t always work out the way you want them to, but that’s not always a bad thing. Sometimes they work out better than expected.

Eric 🙂

Comment by Eric Olsen

Wow, Darrell, you have been thinking! It is amazing to realize how limiting our own dreams are when we reflect back and see the path we are on!

Comment by ginazugelder

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